Not lost...just undiscovered

"You are so brave".  I have made several major life changes over the past several years, and I often hear those four words.  I am more inclined to think of it as having faith.  Having trust...in yourself..knowing that all is well in the moment.  Don't misunderstand, I've been anxiety ridden and down right scared out of my mind during many of those changes.  It "ain't" easy.  It is possible. I left a job Dec 29, 2018 because integrity was worth more than any paycheck.  I had no idea what I would do. I only knew what I would not do.  By Feb 1, I had sold my house (to a family member which made it much easier). I secured a new job and moved into an apartment in the city that was part of a compensation for my new employment as a residential counselor.  I was able to pay off my debt and start a new adventure.  I gave away much of what I had accumulated and only took what would fit in a three room apartment.  The anxiety turned into...

Blessings for Marriage So very young She was swept off her feet By someone who was so underserving... I could only sit back and wait to pick up the pieces, Which I did over and over again. His unfaithfulness left her bent But not broken She emerged a Phoenix  You capatured the heart of this beautiful bird And let her go once before Will you be blinded again? I think not.  You know what you almost lost forever,  And you know the struggles of your families cultural discontent You also know that your heart is only complete when joined with hers I know that her love is true And her heart is stronger when joined with yours And that is why I give you my blessing.  Her heart is already yours.

Transformation may sometimes be painful, confusing, frightening and breathtaking. What comes out on the other side is health, wholeness, excitement and breathtaking. The sensation of the later is the reward for the former. Hold on for the ride, breathe in and out slowly as you navigate the unknown with eyes wide open.

Strong roots are helpful.  No matter what comes along, strong roots keep you upright.  You may bend as you face adversity or you may struggle to keep from falling as you grow.  Your roots are entangled in such a way that they are perfect supports.  No matter how far you go from them, they remain steadfast.

Reflection.  On the last day of each year, that seems to be the common theme.  I wonder how different our year would be, if we reflected each day, renewed our intentions, stayed present in the moment.  What would you do differently.  Living each day intentionally instead of reactively.  Some feel change is to difficult to handle, after all, there is c omfort in predictability.  Change is certainly anxiety provoking at its core. Albert Einstein once said, "The measure of intelligence is the ability to change".  We can all change.  Only a brief amount of courage is needed to face any fears that get in the way.  So today I reflect the past, but won't live in it. Today I also embrace the change of the future. Grateful, exciting, beautiful, and full of abundance. Be at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let every new year find you a better man.” -- Benjamin Franklin

Today is the first day of yet another new Journey. "So if you're not going to play ball, you're not an agency person. Maybe you should consider if you're still a good fit here" Mmmm....misappropriate government funding that not only violates regulations, it serves to hurt the people who do the most important work for the most vulenrable folks in our society. Yeah, not a good fit for me anymore. So here I am, 61 years old and ready to reinvent myself yet again. Change is always anxiety provoking, yet, growth cannot happen if you stay exactly as you are, where you are, how you are. I'm ready to move forward with intention, purpose, faith and love. Follow me on this journey and lets grow together.

Hanging on Hanging on by a thread or is it more like  being suspended in mid air when you aren't sure of what is coming next when you are no longer one of a pair Hanging on by a thread or is it the removal of unnecessary strands that gives the freedom to move lightly through till the day you will softly land